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Saturday, February 16, 2013

I said "Yes!"

I'm engaged!! I'm going to marry the most wonderful man, the answer to my prayers, the perfect fit for me. He proposed in a place that is very special to me, and was very special to Andie. The place where I go when I need to connect with Andie and find peace.  It is one of my happiest places in the world.  He wanted to do it there because he wanted me to know that Andie will always be a part of our lives.  We will always honor him and welcome memories of him, and teach the girls about the kind of man he was.

Before I even met my fiance, while browsing for ways to redesign my original wedding ring, I found a morganite ring.  I fell in love with the soft pink color and was smitten.  I decided then that if I ever got married again this was the stone I wanted.  I didn't want anything traditional or ordinary, as I knew that anyone who I could choose to share my life with again would in no way be traditional or ordinary.  It would have to be a unique and extraordinary love for me to open my heart up again. I had never heard of morganite before so I did a little research and found this...

"Morganite is known both as an angel stone and a heart stone. It can bring love to one's life or rekindle old love. As an angel stone, it is known to help with communicating with angels. Morganite also brings compassion, empathy, self-control, and patience. It can also balance emotions and ease the pain of separation."

"Morganite helps to you attract a soul-mate or to deepen the emotional bonds already present in a relationship. It can also assist you in breaking the ties of destructive relationships, by bolstering your self-confidence and self-love. It assists you to release old emotional patterns freeing you to begin love anew. Its energy also brings peace and acceptance in times of grief and loss."

It sounded like it was made for me, and for where I imagined I would be at the time in my life when I would be ready to heal and accept the loss of Andie, while moving forward with someone new.  Luckily, when I shared my thoughts with him about the kind of ring I wanted he was totally on board and found the perfect one for me!  And he loved the symbolism of the stone also.  The ability to incorporate my past as it made me who I am today and the person he fell in love with, while also incorporating our deep love for each other and who we will grow to be, is something we both value.  Honoring the love I had in my life with Andie is an integral part in allowing me to accept new love in my life again.

I have to say that I feel I have found my soul mate.  I feel a deep emotional connection and intimacy with him that I have never experienced with another person.  I have allowed myself to be completely open and vulnerable so that he knows every part of me.  I can not imagine being able to find this kind of bond ever again.  I am so blessed to be able to have this kind of love in my life.  He is an exceptional man who adores me and my children and I couldn't be happier to continue the journey with anyone else.