So it's been a while since my last post. You've probably noticed a lot has changed on my blog. Well, that's because a lot has changed in my life. Andie passed away on June 18, 2010 and left me with two beautiful daughters to raise. It's taken me a few months to feel like I have my feet back on the ground and even that seems only momentary.
I considered not blogging anymore but have decided that it's a good way for everyone to keep up with how me and the girls are doing- I know you're all wondering. Raising twins is hard, but raising twins as a single parent is TOUGH- and humbling.
I've learned a lot about myself in the past few months. I've had to ask for help more than I'm comfortable with, I've had to compromise on a lot of things, and I've had to adjust my life plan. I've learned that I have more love and support than I ever knew was possible, but I've also learned that all of that seems inconsequential when you've lost your other half. I've learned that grieving for your spouse is just a small piece of the picture. You also grieve the loss of who you were as a wife, the loss of your hopes and dreams, the loss of the future you had planned, and most of all you grieve for your children and how they will never know and experience their dad as you did.
People often ask how I am doing. The truth is: it depends on the moment, the day, the hour, what song is on the radio, what street I'm driving on, or who's asking. I'm doing as well as I can with what I've been given. My girls are my saving grace and keep me looking forward to the next moment, day, or hour...
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Brooke, you are amazing. Your strength has been an inspiration to everyone. Those girls are so precious. I know they are a blessing to you. Remember, you are loved.
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Beautifully written. I wondered about you often but feel like "how are you?" just doesn't mean much b/c how can you honestly answer that in words after everything you've been through. Glad to see you back on the blog and hopefully it'll be therapeutic and keep the rest of us updated on you and the girls at the same time!
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So happy you will continue the blog. Love seeing updates on you and the girls. I pray for you often and know you are doing an outstanding job and admire your strength. ~Allison
ReplyDeleteThank you all for the sweet comments and uplifting sentiments. I draw strength from feedback like that!
ReplyDeleteSweetest Brooke, I'm so happy you're back to blogging. You know, I think of you and your precious babies all the time. I often pray for yall during the quick and quiet moments that we all take for granted- while resting at a stop light, in the shower, in the line at a drive-thru.. I'm hoping sending positive thoughts your way will make you feel better- at least temporarily. Thank you for keeping us updated. Wishing you well. xxoo
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