Beautiful in his eyes...

I was updating the apps on my phone today, something I hadn’t done in ages. Some of them were ones that Andie had put on his phone and when I combined our plan together, his apps became mine. Since they were tied to his account it wanted his password to perform some of the updates. I tried several passwords that I thought it might have been, but none worked and it asked me if I would like to change the password. It said I could answer the security questions that Andie had set up or have a new password sent to his email account. I figured I had a pretty good chance of being able to answer the security questions correctly so I proceeded with that option. First it asked me for his date of birth. This is going to be easy, I thought. Then the second question appeared:

“Who is beautiful?”

I entered my name and “presto!” - I had instant access his account. I thought it was so sweet that he had set this up as his security question. It literally made my heart smile and brought a moment of pure joy that I haven’t felt in over 7 months. I’ve never doubted his love for me, but in that moment it was affirmed so strongly. He was always thinking of me in all that he said and did. He never saw me as anything but beautiful; even after the ravages of pregnancy and childbirth when I became the most insecure about myself. And even after he is gone I still have these little affirmations to reassure me since he can’t actually reassure me himself anymore.
Seeing that question pop up today was almost as good as hearing him actually say the words himself.

I was always beautiful in his eyes.